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Last night, on Mother's Day Eve, we got another negative pregnancy test. By now I know not to let it get to my heart. I try to remind myself that the reality of our current struggle is temporary. That it's all temporary. But there are times I just need to allow the grief to come stay a while. Mother's Day is one of those times. On Mother's Day I often feel both like a motherless child and a childless mother. A bit odd since my mother is still alive, but we don't have a relationship at this time. (PS: I strongly recommend we start healing our own generational trauma before having children of our own- it just makes things so much happier and healthier.) Lately to heal my mother wound, I've been doing a deep dive into self-mothering. Tending to my inner child on a moment to moment basis. Listening to her. Providing for her. Putting her needs before my wants. I've been expressing gratitude for the High Grand-mothers: Mother Earth, the universe, the unconditional and eternal providers. Also, leaning into the mothers in my life- family and friends who feel like surrogate mothers, guides, healers, and nurturers. No matter how present or positive our relationship with our mothers, we have access to an endless source of maternal energy. We are forever held, protected, and loved. So to all, Happy Mother's Day. ✨????????✨ #vulnerability #vulnerabilityisstrength #motherwound #motherwoundhealing #motherhood #innerchildwork #innerchildhealing #infertility #fertilityjourney #fertilitysupport #childlessmothersday #motherlesschild #npdsurvivor #npdsupport #selfmothering #begentlewithyourself #vulnerableshare #sadonmothersday #therapy #mothersdaytalk #inmyfeelings #fertilitywarrior #infertilitysupport #openup #selfcare #alwaysloved #mentalhealth #mentalhealthsupport #happinessisaninsidejob #motherslove

This weekend at @indypopcon was amazing. Thank you so much to everyone who came out to show their love. This was some of my favorite time I've gotten to spend with @emilybett @coltonlhaynes @davidpaulramsey and @johnscotbarrowman . We've shared years of wonderful memories together, but somehow, coming together like this after filming has ended, a little older, a little wiser, a little more seasoned by life, a little more open-hearted, it felt like everyone's soul was shining brighter and clearer than ever. I felt closer to them than ever. I am filled with so much gratitude to have these people in my life. True friends who I would trust with anything, whose company I enjoy every single second of... In adulthood, these kinds of relationships are not easy to come by. Also, such a sweet surprise to make new Arrowverse friends, @daninicolet and @kaylacheriecompton , who instantly felt like a piece of our crazy, silly, beautiful little puzzle. My heart is smiling so big. Thank you #Indianapolis , until next time. ???? #indipopcon2024 #teamarrow #arrowverse #friendsarefamily #friendship #conlife #comicconvention #castmates #lifeisbeautiful #convention #findyourtribe

It's always the right time for a hoedown.????????????#texasholdem #texasholdemdancechallenge #country #countrygirl #countrymusic #beyonce #beyoncetexasholdem #dance #dancechallenge #moveyourbody #havefun #lightenup #cowgirlboots #cowgirl #yeehaw #linedance #southerncharm #wildwest #westernstyle #westernmusic #dancingqueen #movement #dancedancedance #easydancesteps #likearhinestonecowboy #thisainttexas #funathome #hoedown #rideemcowboy

See you soon, Indiana! ???????????????????????? #indypopcon #indypopcon2024 #blackcanary #dinahdrake #arrowverse #thewalkingdead #meetandgreet #indiana #letthegoodtimesroll

The fertility journey continues!!! ????✨ Second surgery in a month (15th procedure in total??) Biiiig hug to anyone else going through this. ???????? Hubby and I are on year 4 of this whirlwind ???? and by far, one of the most unexpected and welcomed outcomes of the process has been learning to be a mother ✨to myself.✨ A concept I'd never really even considered, let alone practiced until recently. Holding myself with unconditional love, compassion, softness, strength, and acceptance was somewhat foreign to me in the past. What an incredible and necessary discovery to make before mothering a child. I am more resilient, brave, self-knowing, solid in my marriage, authentic, loving, and trusting in the universe than I was when this all began. I let go of all expectations for motherhood to look a certain way or come at a certain time. This opened a pathway to peace.With the help of weekly therapy (@a_verybritishlesbian ), the fertility community, amazing doctors (@fertilitygodmother @siedhoff ), and an incredible personal support system I'm so blessed to have (???? @eskandar_alexander and more- you know who you are), I've developed total faith that if we're meant to guide a soul through this life, we will- however & whenever it's meant to happen.I am so grateful for the challenges, because without them I would not be this unrecognizable version of myself- someone who I've never been prouder of, or taken better care of. If this is your journey too, please know that the universe supports you infinitely- it just sometimes has a funny way of showing it. But don't ever lose hope. Especially when you don't get what you want in the moment. Trust. Everything is going to be okay. I promise. You are not alone. ????????????#fertility #fertilityjourney #fertilitytreatment #endometriosis #endoawareness #fibroidawareness #lowamh #infertilitysupport #infertilityawareness #infertilitywarrior #infertilityhope #ivf #ivfwarrior #ivfcommunity #ivfsupport #ivftreatment #ivfhumor #marriagegoals #motherhood #wellnessjourney #mentalhealthsupport #godsplannotmine #faithinspired #iui #hysteroscopy #laproscopicsurgery #fertilityhelp #lightinthedarkness #positivevibes #motherhoodjourney

Back by popular demand, another day in the canyon with Jemima Mae and Jenkins. Meow!!! ????️???? #funny #funnyvideos #coupleshumor #relationshipgoals #relationshiphumor #marriedlife #marriedhumor #nowlistenhere #jemimamae #jenkins #canyonlife #funnyreels #laughsfordays #californialiving #countrylife #countrygirl #countryfashion #humor #comedy #comedyreels #canyoning #relationshipgoals #laughmore #rusticliving #adviceoftheday #southernhospitality #naturelovers #outdoorliving #satire #bushcraft #laughoftheday

It can happen to the best of us ????#acting #auditioning #storytime #actorslife #funnystory #truestory #embarrassing #embarrassingstory #commercialactress #funny #cringe #epicfail #anesthesia #healthiswealth #healthfirst #vulnerability #vulnerablepost #couplesgoals #whyme #actingisreacting #failfriday #badauditions #badday #baddaysbuildbetterdays #baddayshappen #lessonlearned #shithappens #actorsworld #mortified #gottalaugh

롤 돌아가고 있는지 몰랐지.......그저 신났었지 나는.... #카메라앞에서#늘조심해야하는이유#김선철촬영감독님#나도사진많다요